It is quite depressing when none of your expectations are ever met and reality smacks you straight in the face. That’s why I lowered my expectations to the worst of every circumstance and I expect the worst of people which is quite cynical of me. I once was a joyful and optimistic person, but what can I do when I put my hard work, hope, and determination into something and everything’s lost? The human spirit is amazing in that I still keep fighting and hoping to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I still have a little hope in humans and what my life may become despite the many disappointments I’ve caused myself in the past 16 years. I would like to believe that somehow everything will work out in the end, but it just doesn’t. I guess that’s what I get for watching so many television shows and movies while growing up. They really should stop spoiling children these days with joy as they will never receive it. I really set myself up for disappointment this time, but why should I complain when it’s all my doing? No one will ever care for me the way I do for everyone else or ever see what I truly see in the world. From now on, life will be strictly business for me. I hate emotions.